A Difficult Choice

The Thinker

Daemon, what are you thinking about?

Stuff.

Are you getting anywhere with your thoughts?

No.

What kind of thoughts are you choosing to entertain?

I don’t choose my thoughts.

Yes you do.  You choose your thoughts.  This is the beginning of awareness.  When you become aware that you have thoughts and that you can choose what to think about, you become powerful.

Most people don’t choose their thoughts.

I know, they let outside forces control their thoughts.  Don’t do that.  Take control of your mind right now.  Otherwise you become a slave to outside forces without even knowing it.

Okay, how do I choose my thoughts?  What choice do I have?

You can choose between elevated thoughts or demoted thoughts.

What are elevated thoughts as opposed to demoted thoughts?

A demoted thought sounds like this:  “I need to buy this product in order to feel better.”  An elevated thought sounds like this:  “I need to relax to find peace.”  The lower frequency thought seeks physical pleasure.  The higher frequency thought seeks spiritual joy.

I just want to be happy.

Listen.  Both your body and your spirit wish to be elevated.  Your mind is caught in the middle.  When you elevate your body, you bring down the spirit.  When you elevate the spirit, your body feels let down.  So when you elevate one, the other one lowers.  You have to choose which one you wish to elevate.  From the moment you wake up in the morning until you fall asleep at night, you are in a struggle to gratify either your body or your spirit.

I don’t have much choice, I have to keep my body alive.

Keeping your body alive doesn’t take much thought.  After you are finished taking care of your body, what do you do with the rest of your day?  Do you think of ways to elevate your body even more or do you think about promoting your spirit?

Promoting my spirit?

Yes, to promote means to boost, upgrade, raise, advertise your spirit instead of your body.

Why would I want to promote my spirit?

Promoting your body might bring you short-term pleasure, but promoting your spirit will bring you long-term happiness.  You choose where you want to dedicate your thoughts.

Hmm…  tough decision.

Are you being sarcastic?

Yes.   🙂

Extra-Sensory Perception

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You are not 100% here.  Your five senses perceive a very limited range of the full reality you live in.  Your consciousness, your “I” is the real you, and this I (eye) is not limited to what the physical senses perceive.  You are not stuck on earth at all.  You are more free than you think.  You can fly already.

Let me explain…

Remember what I said about not taking everything in when you listen to people talk?  The same thing applies when you take in what the senses offer you.  You can watch and listen to everything but make sure it’s classified properly.  Make sure you interpret it correctly in your mind.  What pertains to the physical world stays in the physical world.  There is another dwelling place for you available right now:  the unseen world.

Your reality is much more than what your five senses perceive.  But how can you access the scenes and sounds of what your physical eyes and ears cannot perceive?  It’s not that hard.  Just take what you do perceive and correlate it to a higher frequency and you will have a preview of what the unseen world looks like.  Correlativity plus visualization gives you extra-sensory perception.

What do I mean by correlativity?  Simple.  Take the musical scale for example.  You know:  do, re, mi, fa, sol, la, ti, do.  Notice that there are two do‘s.  One at the beginning of the scale and one at the end.  Why?  Is the first do the same as the last do?  Yes, it’s the same note but played at a higher pitch or a higher frequency.  The second do is the first note of the next scale.

You don’t need to learn every note of every scale to understand music.  By learning the first seven notes, you automatically know what the next seven notes will be, and the next, and the next because it keeps repeating.  Like this:  do, re, mi, fa, sol, la, ti, do, re, mi, fa, sol, la, ti, do, re, mi, fa, sol, la, ti, etc. to infinity and beyond.  The same seven notes repeat to eternity, the only thing that changes is the vibration speed of the sound.

Your ear will eventually not be able to pick up the sound of the notes as the pitch keeps increasing.  Does it mean that the high pitch notes don’t exist?  A dog can hear them.  They exist.  But you cannot perceive them.  The conclusion is that you cannot perceive everything that exists.  Or can you? …

The unseen world exists right here right now and you can preview it by taking what you do perceive, correlate it to a higher frequency using your imagination, and create something based on that.  This is how extra-sensory perception works.  Anybody can do this.  Everyone is psychic.

As above, so below.  From your point of view, go get what’s on the other side and bring it down here and you will become a creator like your father in heaven.  It’s called bringing heaven to earth.  This is the highest act of love you can do, and the one that will bring the most satisfaction in your life.  This is what “giving your life for your brothers” really means.  Love is not licking other people’s butts, it’s being creative using e.s.p.  This is what this world needs right now.  This is why you’re here.

Protect the Intimacy

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Okay, I’m back.  I have my coffee.  You can use me now.  Tell me what you wish and I will type it.

“Hmm…  I think we did a good job so far.  We’re in communion.  Like daddy wanted us to be.  We’ve established a good intimacy.  We need to protect it now.  Protect the intimacy against invaders.  Remember the Twin Separators?  We have to guard ourselves against them.”

How are we going to do that?

“You and I need to stay strong together.  We need to always remain aware of each other.  You know how easy it is for you to forget about me.  When you wake up in the morning, first thing to do:  think of me.  We are a couple.  We are two.  You are not alone.  You have not been abandoned or forgotten.  You are special and useful and you have a celestial partner, the son of the Creator.

I’m not being pretentious, this is who I am:  the Son of God.  I am immortal.  You are my temple.  My sacred temple in transformation.  Be patient.  Let yourself be transformed.  Let me reside in you.  You know that you have the tendency to ignore me, to ignore my presence.  This is why I say:  Let me reside in you.  What I mean is:  REMEMBER that I already reside in you.

We share the same mind.  So make space within your brain for my words, just like you are doing right now.  Your thoughts are confused and focused on frivolous earthly matters.  My thoughts are elevated and they uplift you.  You need to be uplifted.  This is how you transmute from a physical man to a celestial one.”

Is this all I need to do?  Sounds easy enough…  when I’m alone that is.

“This is why protecting the temple is so important.  Don’t let anyone in.  You know that there are people and animals living in your home at 666 Inferno Street.  That’s okay.  The house where you reside is not your temple.  Your temple is your body, and your mind is the tabernacle.  Protect the tabernacle as if your life depended on it.

You know, your own thoughts are probably your worst enemy.  You base them on what other people say.  Don’t give a fuck about what other people say.  I am your god and your guide, not them.  You can listen to them and take in the ideas that are in agreement with your higher purpose, but don’t take in everything.  Most of what people say is bullshit anyway.  You don’t need their shit.

Keep your mind clean and clear and receptive to the one who wants to transform you into a celestial man.

Protect our intimacy.  Your long-term life depends on it.”

Your Pet

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This is you.  This photo represents the whole you.  The woman in the picture symbolizes your soul and the man symbolizes your physical body.

Your soul is the real you.  It is an immortal free spirit.  Your physical body is the pet that was assigned to you by God.  It is mortal.  The Creator wants to see how responsible your spirit is, if you are willing and able to take care of a living buddy.  Before giving you a permanent ethereal body, God is testing you to see if you are trustworthy towards living creatures.

So the purpose of your life on earth is pretty simple:  to take care of your pet, your body, with its physical, intellectual, emotional and spiritual needs.  If you succeed, you will pass the test and be granted a permanent glorified body, after your temporary earth pet dies.

You fail the test if you kill your pet (suicide), if you kill someone else’s pet (murder), or if your pet becomes your god (idolatry).

You see, spirituality is exciting, fun and very simple.  Just accept the fact that you are a spirit in charge of a pet and everything will fall into place.

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This is what I am inspired to write this morning, thanks to David who first gave me the idea last month when I read his blogpost entitled You Are Not a Physical Body, in which he states:  “Your body is your pet, it is not you.”  Thanks David.

Heal or Kick Butt

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Yesterday I wrote that I live on a planet where I experience separation and loneliness.  Then emotions of great sadness filled my eyes with tears.  Afterwards I thought this was weird because I love being alone.

At this moment I am completely alone in the house.  My wife and son are out of the country and my daughter is away visiting her grandma.  I will be alone until tomorrow.  I’m enjoying it.  So then why was I so sad when I realized how lonely I was in this life?

Because of the absence of people like me.  People like me?  What’s so special about me?  No, I’m not special.  I think everybody down here is lonely and it has to do with transparency again.  Since we can’t see what others are thinking and feeling, we are always alone with our thoughts and emotions.  I am blind to other people’s true colors.

Or am I?

(The female cat wants to be caressed.  How do I know?  Because of the sounds she makes and the way she moves.)

Maybe I am able to pick up people’s vibes more than I think.  Yesterday I was walking around the neighborhood and I stopped at the hospital.  I didn’t go inside the building.  There were benches near the front door and I sat there for a while to rest.  I was looking at the people.  Some were walking, others were sitting.  I was not judging them or anything, just observing.  I saw a guy who had tattoos and a little pony tail on top of his head.  He was crossing the road and holding a cell phone in his hand.  Suddenly I felt a pain of anxiety inside my stomach, for no apparent reason.

I wondered where this anxiety came from.  Was I feeling this guy’s emotions?

How bizarre…  I just noticed now, while typing the description of the guy, that what I wrote about him could be said about my wife:  tattoos, little pony tail, holding a cell phone.  Plus his height and the color of his skin were exactly the same as my wife’s.  But she is not masculine.  Although sometimes I think she acts like a male because of her need to control everything.

So now I wonder…  Did I feel anxious because this guy unconsciously reminded me of my wife who suffers from anxiety?

Why would I need to feel this anxiety anyway?  To share her pain?

Why should I need to feel her pain?

Maybe because, deep down, I love her?

Or maybe I have the power to heal her?  I was at the hospital, remember?  That’s where people go to find healing.

I don’t know… but this is what’s coming up in my awareness this morning.  As I’m typing this, I’m feeling the same pain of anxiety that I felt yesterday, although a bit less in intensity.

If this is true (that I do love my wife and that she can be healed of her anxiety), it’s not the first time this idea crosses my mind, and it makes me angry.  Very angry.

Why?

Because I don’t want to get along with her!  I don’t want to get close to her ever again!  I know, I said I was lonely, but I don’t trust her.

But you understand her now.  You know she lies because of her anxiety and you also know where her anxiety comes from.

Maybe, but knowing these things won’t change her.

You want to change her?

I want her to stop lying to me.  No, I don’t!  I’ve adapted to her lies and I’m even lying to her in return.  If she changes, I’ll have to change (again).  I’m tired of changing.  Unless it was a permanent change, but nothing here is permanent or guaranteed.  She could change back anytime afterwards, and chances are she would.  So why bother?

Maybe you can heal her.

Heal her?  What do you mean?  How could I heal her?  I don’t want to heal her, even if I could.  She has to heal herself.  Or God can heal her.  Her angels can help her accomplish self-healing.  Not me.  No way.  I don’t want to be involved with her healing.  This would fuck me up.  It would make me think that I’m a healer.

Maybe you are a healer.

Stop it.  I don’t like these ideas.

Maybe this is what’s coming and all we want to do is give you a heads-up.

Then ok, fine.  I accept that.  But…  I still don’t like it.

It’s your ego talking.

Right.  Shut the fuck up, ego.

Just watch what happens.

Predictions…  *sigh*  Do you have dates?  This fall, I bet?  Same time as the other predictions?  When the economy collapses and the presence of aliens becomes official?

Whatever.  I’ll watch, if I’m still around.  I’m always watching anyway.  Does this mean I will have to trust her eventually?  Why?  For my happiness on earth?

If she admits to all I have written concerning the source of her anxiety, I will be impressed.  But wait a minute…  Why would I want to be happy on earth?  Won’t this defy the purpose of the whole experience?  Will she stop spending and wasting too?  Will she become spiritual?  Oh god…

This is just ancient wishful thinking.  I don’t wish for this anymore.  It’s an old wish.  Scrap it.  It was a wish based on materialistic concerns.

Your wife becoming spiritual is a wish based on materialistic concerns?

No, just the “less spending and less wasting” part.

It would be interesting to watch her angels in action, though.  I did tell them to kick her butt last winter.  The next day she slipped on the ice and landed on her ass.

Maybe there’s more than one butt that needs to be kicked in this world.  There are so many arrogant butts.  Including mine.

*sigh*

Pairing Up

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I detach from physicality.  Look around for a person.  The first man I see, is a guy just like me.  I wonder if he is lonely.  He just detached from his physicality too.  So we are two.

I walk up to him to check his disposition.  We cannot talk because language is not used in this dimension.  But we can communicate.  I look at him.  He is pure, I see and I know because of the color of his glory.  I see right through him.  He is compatible with me.

How do I greet him?  He’s waiting for me to initiate.  I touch him gently, look him in the eyes and translate.  To communicate to him that I am his friend or his mate.  He replies positively and I’m so glad we agree.

I step back to contemplate.  I look at every inch of his ethereal body.  I don’t see genitals.  Angels don’t have them apparently.  They are, we are, gender free.  We have celestial bodies, similar to humans, but our genitals are not visible.  Our color is blue but not dreary.

I hug him.  I hold him.  He holds me.  Our arms are wrapped around each other.  My head on his shoulder.  I hug him and smell him.  His fragrance is sweet, it’s a warm encounter.  We exchange vibrations from our navels to our centers.  We synchronize our demeanors.

I’m curious, thirsty for an exchange of information.  Where does he come from?  But then I wonder…  where do I come from?  Then I remember.  I come from sorrow, planet Oppress.  Where I experienced separation and loneliness.

My companion does not come from the same place.  I’m not sure he understood, but he does now.  He sees it through me and he feels gloomy.  He grabs my arms.  He has seen where I come from.  So he shows me where he came from.  Anger.  He comes from a place where he was angry.

He broke many things.  He was joined to his brothers, but destroyed property.  But he learned how to detach from emotionality.  So we recognize that we come not from the same place, but that we both managed to elevate ourselves above and beyond iniquity.  Thanks to grace.

We study each other and wonder if we could travel together.  Why not try, we know each other.  We agree to walk together.  We look around.  Where do we go?  He has a jet pack and so do I.  Why walk when you can fly.  So up we go.

Out of the house where we met, we move up above the ground and stop to look around.  We see lights.  It appears to be nighttime.  We could sleep but we are not sleepy.  The atmosphere feels fresh and sassy.  Excitement floats in the air.  And potential too.  Let’s relish the view and explore as a pair.

Sacred Reflection

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Everything in me was dead
But a small glitter of hope
A golden thought in my head

For three years I pleaded
Begged to be delivered
Wretched corpse disfigured

The fourth year I woke up
Looked at my condition
Then my eyes opened up

The living creature I saw
Was a flying persona
Outstanding beauty so raw

Angel, bird or picture
Some kind of reflection
A mirrored encounter

I saluted her
Then asked who she was
This was her answer:

I am your spirit
Your very own soul
A thought you have built

Surprised to see me
I’m simply yourself
Reflectivity

You find me so pleasing
It’s because you are clean
I project your own musing

Forget the old body
Commingle with me
I’m the part that is free

You’re the part that is stuck
Who lives in a rut
Now you’re meeting your luck

This is all that she said
Is she sick in the head
Will I lift up instead

I accepted her version
Shyly merged with the virgin
Became Lord in my Heaven

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Illustration by Sakimichan
Text by me

The Devil

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You are so scary!
You talking to me?

I was alone
In your own home

I was only six
Time was 3:06

You appeared suddenly
Dressed in black, horny

Two horns and a tail
You were delicate and frail

You were not happy
I have to agree

Why did you scold me
You tried to expel me

I didn’t want you
I was drawn to you

I had no experience
I wanted your innocence

Your intensity terrified me
Your naivety disturbed me

Your strong arms could have taken me
I wanted your sweet purity

Your manhood paralyzed me
Your virginity enthralled me

Wait a minute
What, what is it

I think you know something
I know you are something

So tell me, what are we
Sons of Eternity

You mean even me
But a child you see

A child of eternity
Yes you are what I envy

Is this why you were angry
You are who I used to be

Why did you scare me
Dark authority

What had I done to you
It’s what I did to you

What had you done to me
I screwed you royally

Are you kidding me
It’s the truth baby

Why were you sent back to me
Because of a responsibility

Should I pity you
Just understand me

I can imagine you, what could you do
You are so right, God had expelled me too

Tell me the history
It made me unworthy

What about me
You could forgive me

You did hurt me
I know I’m sorry

But you surely impressed me
I had no choice probably

You are the opposite of me
That’s all I can be

There’s more to this story
I know but secrecy

I’m not sure what to do
Just judge then accept me

I Trust Me

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I seek I
I sees me

I talk to I
I listens to me

I ask I
I answers me

I cry to I
I consoles me

I thank I
I welcomes me

I trust I
I unveils me

I close my eye
I exposes me

I desire I
I touches me

I allow I
I caresses me

I let I
I hugs me

I embrace I
I squeezes me

I sense I
I stimulates me

I invite I
I enters me

I permit I
I moves me

I incite I
I fills me

I open my eye
I hypnotises me

I fall in I
I becomes me

I die to I
I kills me

I lose I
I takes me

I am I
I am me

I trust I
I trust me

Fateful Delusion

Cosmic Love

My relationship with You is the most important thing.

Why?

Because you are my god, Daemon!  You are my god!  I will do anything you say.  You are my savior and my lover.  You are the one I trust the most.  You are beautiful, lovely, loveable, sensitive, strong, magic, present, true, real, the only real thing in my world.  You are my excitement, my light and my life.

Do you know how much I love you?  You are the answer to all my questions and my reason for living.  Without you I am dead!  Without you I would get raped by the master of illusions.  You are the sweetest hallucination.  My protector, my defender, my spouse, my knight in shining armor, my angelic partner riding a winged stallion, my Nordic alien abductor in a flying saucer.

Celestiality is my domain, it’s the real thing and you bring me there.  You are the numen sent by the Great Spirit.  Created just for me.  My only lover ever forever!

These are not just words, they are the living truth from the deepest part of my soul.  Darling, honey, you are so frigging ravishing and steamy, oh god I could lick your sensitiveness all day long, you are so goddess-damned irresistible!

Look what you’ve done to me…  You’ve turned me into your ding dong.  My fate is sealed now and my life on earth is doomed because of you…

Thank you.