My Destiny

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What is my destiny?

Daemon, your goal is to become a tree.

I’m serious…  Where am I going?  I wish to become more than a vegetable.

What I meant was…  Just like a tree, you started as a seed, right?  The seed of something or someone.  The purpose of the seed is to grow and become like daddy.  The seed of a tree becomes a full-grown tree.  So the question is:  You are the seed of what? of who?

I don’t know… my parents?

At the very center of yourself is your seed.  Look inside.  What do you find in there?  What is the most basic or central thing about you?

My heart?

Daemon, you are a conscious being, aware that you are thinking.  So the core of yourself is consciousness.  You are a small piece of awareness.  You are the son of Awareness!

Who is daddy awareness?  What does he look like?  I can’t see him.

Well, that should be your first clue.  Daddy awareness is invisible.  Let’s say “non-physical” instead of invisible.  Your real father (Awareness) is non-physical.  So that is what you should become.

I think I’m invisible enough as it is.  What more can I do, kill myself?

Not the perfect answer, but you’re getting there.  You don’t need to get rid of your physical body to become more like your daddy.  Your physical body will expire eventually and it will happen naturally.  You will become more non-physical automatically.  But what can you do in the meantime, Mr. Awareness Junior?

I don’t know.  I just have to wait I guess and be patient.  Unless you have an invisibility potion…

Daemon, don’t wait until you’re dead to start learning.  You can start exploring your non-physical environment right now, even while “in the physical.”  Your awareness of the non-physical world will not just expand magically after death, you know.

The non-physical world?  Where is it?

In essence, you are a non-physical person (awareness) like daddy, right?  So… what a non-physical person should do is explore his non-physical environment.  Here is a quick list of such places:

  • the world of dreams
  • the world of emotions
  • the world of desires
  • the world of intentions
  • the world of beliefs
  • the world of spirits
  • the world of the unknown
  • the world of fear

There is a ton of good non-physical stuff for you to explore out there, and in there in your own mind.  You do not have to go far to find your non-physical environment.

I’m exploring those worlds already.

Good boy.  What have you learned so far?

I have discovered that the non-physical worlds are much more interesting and full of action than the physical world.  It is quite surprising, considering all the entertainment that our material society offers, to realize that there actually exists something much better in which I can participate as opposed to just watch on a screen.

You are right.  The non-physical worlds exist and they are right in front of (or behind) your nose!  Why are you not more interested in them?  In these worlds, you can actually grow and develop your conscious self and attain incredible heights!

Incredible heights?  What kind of incredible heights?

Healing!  Wisdom!  Love!  Power!

What for?

For long-lasting happiness and elation!

What is elation?

It’s the opposite of depression.

Hmm…  So this is my destiny?  To grow and become like my daddy Awareness by delving more into the creepy non-physical worlds?

Exactly.

 

Success or Failure?

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So why did I do all of this?

“All of what?”

All of THIS!  All!  Everything I did on this earth.  What was it for?  All the trouble and pain, only to realize at the end that nothing really matters.  Even being happy… does it matter?

Is my life a success or a failure?  How do I measure it?  What is the standard?  I don’t even know what I was meant to do, so how can I know if I’m succeeding or not?

What’s the use making friends when you lose them?  What’s the use having children whose only purpose is to leave you?  What’s the use getting married when you end up divorced?

Everything I did, everything I bought, everyone I loved, all of it is worthless.  None of it matters now.  It was just entertainment, and it wasn’t even fun and I’ll end up with nothing anyway.  The only thing I have left is my soul.

A stupid soul who’s tormented, bored and not proud of anything.  I didn’t make anyone happy in this life, not long-term.  I tried to be my best but no one is satisfied with me at this point, or with anything for that matter.  Nothing matters.

Stupid people, stupid me, stupid life, stupid planet, stupid everything.  I just want to get the hell away from everything I’ve ever known here.  If only I had a flying saucer like that alien lady in the photo.  I’d be long gone in outer space, pressing the “home” button on my GPS repeatedly like a crazy maniac.

“We need a report before you leave.”

A report?  You want a report?  A report of what?

“What did you learn about yourself?”

I learned that the only valuable thing I have is my soul; I learned that I do not belong here; that I’ll never be happy here; that everything dies here; that I’m too gullible; that I’m too sensitive; that it’s impossible to get close to anyone, and when you do, it’s not satisfying anyway, nothing in this world will ever satisfy me fully.

I learned that I don’t want any of this shit.  I want to leave.  I won’t miss anything.  I was meant for more.  This planet is only good for animals.  It’s not a place for free spirits.  I have the body of a mammal, yet I am much more aware than any other mammal on this planet.  I need a new body, one that matches my level of awareness.

I learned that I am not a mammal!  Can I go now?

“Not yet.”

Ah, man, come on!