Sweet love of mine
I leave you behind
I’m not unkind
Just a bit blind
Yes I remember
The black wedding
The bloody ring
But… whatever
It’s too late now
You broke the vow
Look what you’ve done
I want to run
Before I go
You need to know
If you can’t grow
End of the show
I turn around
You hit the ground
Why do you bite
Aim for the light
Your love is dark
You hunt and bark
I try to fly
You scream and cry
End of the road
Go kiss a toad
I’d rather die
Than hear you lie
Thanks for watching me, outsider.
Some people freak out
at the thought of being watched
but not me.
On the contrary.
Knowing that you keep an eye on me
night and day excites me.
You know how lonely I feel down here.
No one seems to care.
Sorry, I shouldn’t say that.
Of course, many of them care,
but they can’t do anything for me.
I wouldn’t want them to sit and watch me anyway,
that would be creepy.
But for some reason I don’t mind if you do.
Probably because I know you.
Do you have a life apart from me?
No, I hear.
Your love keeps you bonded like a prisoner,
just like the body does for me.
Like a chicken that sits on her eggs,
you brood over me.
Your need to protect is obsessive.
Your one-track mind is unwavering.
You stalk all day, dreaming.
Like me, wondering…
When will he be ready?
You know I wish to break out of this hell
and throw myself under your spell,
but something is preventing me.
A voice tells me to be patient.
As I harden and grow,
the cage will crack open eventually.
In the meantime I try not to go crazy.
I often feel like I’m going to falter
and forget everything you told me.
It’s tempting to think
that life within this enclosure
is the only one for me.
But I remember
the infatuation
the impressions
and the letter.
Have you noticed? There is no pusher this morning.
I needed a push, so I checked the Daily Prompts and to my surprise, there are none today as of 8:30 a.m., North America Eastern Standard Time.
What happened to the person responsible for posting the daily prompts? Is he/she dead, sick, absent-minded, sleeping, fed up with the job, rebelling? Or maybe it’s a technical glitch, a programming error.
Whatever the reason, it will leave many bloggers without their drug this morning. I’m already starting to feel the effect. With no one around to push me, how do I know in which direction to go? What if I take the wrong step?
Help!
Why do I love a person that I cannot see?
Why do I love blindly?
It’s stupid, really.
Maybe it’s because of experience…
I once loved a lady I could see.
And she deceived me.
Now I love a man who I cannot see.
That man is me, aside from my physical body.
The thinking man, the feeling man, the spiritual man.
That is the real me. I’m not my current limited body.
So I could be blind and still love me.
I love the past me, the present me and the future me.
Especially the future me, the one I intend to be.
He’s already with me. He is within me. And he has a…
beautiful, superpowerful, cosmic light-body!
He invites me
He inspires me
He pushes me
He leads me
I can certainly love blindly.
As long as my true lover is me.
And as long as I live eternally.
Desperation lingers
Between disengaged lovers
Who vowed to stay together
Forever…
Should we talk about it?
Or why not simply split?
I’m so tired
And uninspired
It hurts too much
To be out of touch
Love is frustrated
We’re devastated
Why delve in pain?
It won’t get better
Why strain the brain?
Will it bring closure?
We know what does
Let’s get a buzz
Suffering sucks
Forget Starbucks
Let’s drink lots of beer
Pain will disappear
It’s not very healthy
But good enough for me
Cause you know darling
I don’t mind dying
He lies to his wife, lies to his children, lies to his followers, lies to his friends. No, sorry. Not to his friends because he doesn’t have any. The liar doesn’t have friends, he has… figurines, or pawns, or deluded admirers.
That’s right. And he doesn’t live, he subsists within his own exquisitely well decorated prison. He walks around, alone among others, smiling and waving, buying and selling. He drugs his one-track mind to sleep, drugs his trimmed body to work, drugs his flaccid organ to night clubs, and the next day goes to church. He has sex with himself while screwing the other.
The liar is popular, rich, famous and funny. He loves his life and is afraid to die. He can’t stand sickness, can’t tolerate unhappiness, can’t understand meditation. He watches tv, follows the news and dresses fashionably.
The liar cheats his partner, cheats his employer and cheats himself. He’s an expert with words, he knows exactly what to say and when to say it. He knows when to play the hero and when to play the victim. The liar is a player.
He succeeds in everything he does, he hardly ever gets criticised because he’s wise, slick and sly, politically correct, healthy and he supports the army. He suffers from headaches but doesn’t tell anyone. He goes to the dentist regularly and makes sure his teeth are white.
The liar doesn’t last forever
Because he can’t enter eternity
The liar might be your neighbour
He might be you or he might be me
What a disgusting blogpost
I feel like regurgitating my dinner
Please excuse me
Yes Maestro
What can I be for you, Maestro
You want to see yourself in me, Maestro
You want me to keep my eyes on you, Maestro
I see only glimmers of you, Maestro
I can’t hear you either, Maestro – your silence is deafening
I feel your breathing though – I know you are nearing
Your calm is contagious – your presence soothing
Your exhales are my inhales
Your fragrance my ale
There is no reason to worry
I know her insecurity
She speaks to her own version of me
Never to me directly
She has no understanding
Although she lures me away from you
Sorry darling
I know who I belong to
I must admit that I have been in denial most of my life.
What is it that you deny, Daemon?
It’s not an it, it’s a person. I’m denying someone. I’m denying my lover.
Why?
Because I’m afraid.
Afraid of what?
Of the consequences.
Which consequences?
Rejection.
Who would reject you?
My family.
Why would they reject you?
Because the love I have for you is forbidden.
Why is it forbidden?
Because we live in two different worlds.
So it’s a forbidden love.
Yes, there is a song by that name.
Sing it for me.
Just one kiss from your lips was all it took to seal the future.
Just one look from your eyes was like a certain kind of torture.
Just one touch from your hands was all it took to make me falter.
Just one smile on your face was all it took to change my fortune.
Just one word from your mouth was all I needed to be certain.
Forbidden lover, are we supposed to be together?
Have we sealed are destiny forever?
Daemon, how long will you remain in denial.
Am I in denial right now?
[smiles]
No mister… you are nailed!
It’s obvious that you have been trying to attract my attention
Okay so I have stopped doing all that I was doing
Now why are you not saying anything?
I give you 100% of my attention
And I am listening
. . .
More?
You want more?
How much more can I give you?
What? You want to see more of me?
What would you like to see?
You must be joking!
I’m blushing
Stop it
It’s tempting
I’m not sure I can
Am I allowed to show you that?
I’m afraid that it might get me in trouble
But I am nevertheless glad to know that you are interested
No one has ever been that curious about this private part of me
I get a strange feeling when you look at me like that
Is it possible for anyone to like me this much?
Your intentions are definitively harmless
There is no doubt about that
The problem is me
I am shy
Afraid to reveal
An intimate part of me
Although I absolutely trust you
Then what’s holding me back?
I am a mystery to myself
Did you know that?
How can I reveal
A part of me
That I have not even
Discovered
Myself
?
They pry
They poke
They enter
They come in
They get into
They break in
They trespass
They transgress
They offend
They infract
They violate
I don’t like these intrusions
I can’t stand these transgressions
I can’t take these violations
There is nothing here to learn
Except to protect myself
Against foreign invasions
Metamorphosis 