The process of life seems to be change. But a change of what?
As a person, the process of life seems to be about a change of identity.
Throughout life, I have been enticed to change my identity, or NOT change it, depending on how you look at it.
Enticed by who? Angels? The Devil? Extraterrestrials? the Higher Self? The Lower Self? the Ego? The Source of Life? Kundalini? Jehovah? Jesus? Buddha? Krishna? Muhammad?
Whoever they are, the guys who entice me to change my identity seem to be unknown “Higher-Ups.”
During the first part of my life, I have constructed an identity for myself based on earth. So basically, I identified with earthlings.
Now, during the second phase of my life, my identity as an earthling has started to crumble. In fact, it totally collapsed. And from the ruins, a new identity has started to emerge.
My new identity is in fact the same as my initial identity, the one I had before I started fabricating my identity as an earthling. So I can safely say that my new identity is the same one I had when I was a child. The new me is the old me, the real me. There is only one real me.
My new identity, which is my old identity, is in fact my only identity and it exists BEYOND TIME. Spooky, isn’t it? Perfect for this Halloween night.
If I am not an earthling, then what am I? The “Higher-Ups” have always been trying to get my attention: “Look at us!” they say. “You are one of us. Identify with us!”
But these goddam gods are invisible! How can I identify with people I can’t see? Although when I identify with them, I kind of perceive them. Very bizarre…
I told my family about the higher-ups I could perceive, but they don’t believe me. They don’t believe me simply because they can’t see them. They can’t acknowledge what they don’t perceive. But to perceive them, they have to acknowledge them. You can’t perceive what you don’t acknowledge. How does one get out of this cycle?
Never mind that, it’s too complicated. Besides, it’s not my problem who they identify with. I’m only concerned with myself. Yes, this is how selfish I am. My identity is the only thing that matters.
I know that I am none of these gods. The higher-ups are who they are and I am Me. And I know that I am not an earthling so I must be one of them.
I’m a Higher-Up!