Shit man, you scared me!
– Where were you? What are you doing?
I’m in the Thought World. I’m inside this weird place again. This… box! The writer/blogger/artificial box into which I place myself each time I sit down to write something.
– Take my hand and step out of that box. I want to see you naked.
Naked? Ok, Maestro. Thank you.
– Are you cold? Take this blanket.
Where did you get that blanket?
– It’s an authenticity blanket especially made just for you.
– You should wear it every day, when you enter the Thought World. You will feel light when wearing it.
Yes, I feel light already. Like I can be myself. No need to pretend. You know this WordPress platform is not a place where I want to lose my authenticity.
– It’s a public place. No wonder you feel vulnerable.
I always wondered how it would feel like to be 100% authentic in public.
– You can experiment with that.
Thank you for the blanket, man! If you can, please remind me to put it on every morning after I get up. You know how easily I forget these invisible things.
– Why don’t you create a blogpost on this subject. Then the idea will root itself more firmly into your awareness.
– And one more thing. Don’t go back into that filthy box.
After many months of non-blogging, I decided to start blogging again today. Is it because I have something useful to tell the world? No.
The few people who will actually take the time to read this will probably get nothing out of it. Then why make it public?
Because I don’t go out much and I have a need to get myself “out there.” I have a need for exposure. Blogging makes me feel that I am an active member of society. Ha! ha!
Why am I laughing?
The phrase “I am an active member of society” makes me laugh. Active. As if.
Does society want to witness my act? I know it wants my submission. It also wants my money. And yes, it probably wants me to act appropriately. But is this what I want to give out to society? No.
What I want to give to society is a piece of my mind. I don’t think society wants to hear it. Thus the reason why blogging exists. Whether or not anyone reads it, the act of blogging is a public act. The perfect medium for an introvert.
I’m not interested in acting. I just want to BE. And it seems that in this world, the only way to be accepted is to act well. How about being real?
If being true has become offensive, then today I declare myself an offensive person. Does that make me a terrorist? Probably.
They can come and kill me if they want. I don’t care. I care not to suffer but I don’t mind dying. I think I’ve seen pretty much all that this world has to offer anyway. So let us all gladly surrender and move on to something better.
A blank page offers the opportunity to start fresh. There are no limits to how many posts I can publish in one day (is there?). So let’s end this one right here and start again from scratch. Writing is unlimited. Today I shall blog.