This is what she wrote to me last week:
“After everything we went through, I still love you, and I still have admiration for you in all sorts of ways. Too bad that you can’t see it and that you don’t feel for me what I feel for you.”
It is true that I can’t see it. How can a man see what is in the heart of a woman? Love and admiration cannot be seen. I am blind when it comes to these kinds of things. And how can I be sure that what she says is true? She has lied to me so many times before.
I read her words but I don’t believe them. If she really has love and admiration for me, it would show, wouldn’t it? But then, not necessarily. A woman can love and admire a man without showing it.
Should I be able to see it in her eyes? I have looked into her eyes a thousand times, and I’m afraid to say that I can’t see anything. But I have noticed something interesting though. My feelings are based on my beliefs, not on anything visual.
As long as I believed that she loved and admired me, I felt it. As soon as I stopped believing it, I stopped feeling it.
Belief is so powerful!